What's the purpose of my life?

I mostly wonder what's the purpose of my life.

On personal lines, I never had a relation. My marriage is a disaster. I'm not so close with my family that I can share my feelings.
My school life was mediocre. My college life was better occasionally but I wasn't happy always.
I'm in the same job for 8 years now and I haven't been in favor of it from day 1, or even before during my college interviews.

I do have a few friends with whom I do share my life, but at the end they will have to move on.

It's correctly said that you have to deal life alone, sooner or later. Maybe I'm given the opportunity to understand this a bit early in life.

As of now, my only ask is to give me an opportunity to serve my country.
I totally despise the fact that I'm giving a lot of effort for other countries via my job.

I wish I live to serve my country in the near future, even if I have a short life.

16th Nov 2018 - first marriage anniversary

Happy first marriage anniversary my dear wife!

I wish we were together. I miss you and still love you.

I hope someday we would be able to reconcile our differences, irrespective of whether we are together or not.

I wish you the best of everything!

9th Nov 2018 - Sister's b'day! (Late post)

Sorry yaar tera post late ho gaya. I'll take you to a trip to compensate.

As I said sometime earlier, you're my 2nd Mom. Do I need say more?

Tera foreign trip reh gaya. I'll plan soon, hopefully before you're next b'day.

I wish you become one of the greatest doctors, practicing in one of the best hospitals in India!

Baaki you know I'm always with you when you need me.

Bas ek request - thoda control your temper and jo galti karta hai usko maaf karke try to start fresh, if given an opportunity. I'm sure you'll manage this with time.

Belated happy birthday!!
Loads of love!!

15th Nov 2018 - Mummy ka b'day!

Happy birthday Mummy!

Mujhe pataa hai aap bohot udaas ho mann mein, lekin apan khush rahenge.. apne bhi khushi ke din aayenge jaldi..

15th Nov 2018

Last year, 15th and 16th November were the 2 most beautiful days of my life, where in my and my wife's families were at Puri for our grand wedding.

My wife is not with me now (we're separated) but I would imagine we're happy and together. I would therefore live these 2 days in the best way possible.
I have plans to go on a solo trip and have a great time.

I still miss my wife and wish we were together.

My dear love, I wish you the best of life, wherever you're.