We got legally separated in May, but I haven't been able to accept the fact in my heart. I still consider her as my life partner and wife.
Last night she and my entire in-laws family were in my dream. I overslept, thinking subconsciously that things would get sorted.
Not denying the fact that I long for her. I would gladly accept her back, if she wholeheartedly accepts me as I'm.
I don't feel like getting remarried or even search for a partner. I rather think that if a partner is expected to come in my life, let her find me.
I'm not sure if can live my life this way, all alone, if no one comes in my life. But I choose to give it my best.
A few years back all we heard around was people getting married. And these days we mostly hear people having kids and setting up their family.
There are situations when I'm involved in marriage discussions of my younger friends or siblings, I happen to feel all the flashback of my courtship and marriage days, secretly wishing she was with me.
I long to hold her hands, sleep in her lap when she caresses my hair and support her in every situation.
Not sure what's ahead for me, but I hope she stays happy.
I still love her with all my heart!
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